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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

im back.

so what have i been doin these few days..

nth much..

but just rotting..

i oso forget the last time what i blogged le.

saturday went for service.

abt healing.

sunday went service oso.

abt calling in our life.

was thinkin thru.

whr have my vision gone to.

everything is so dry nw.

why im just so disobedience.

haiz..

after svc mit up with Aileen.

had lunch den we went to Kovan mit up with the guys.

had another jammin session.

the prescence is so strong.

we prayed for Daniel's back..

see him everytime walk den nid to hold his back..

haiz..

anyway..

its a fun outin.

but i hate it..

argh.

dun even know why.

wats wrong oso.

my singing sucks.

duhx.

super low esteem le..

wah lauz..

think i have that phobia of mikes ba..

but why i love kbox mikes huh..

oops..

nvm..

im wierd.

den after tat we da bao to Daniel's hse..

and this time is Zelig thats in pain..

his havin his wisdom tooth..

ha~

i have 3more tat i have yet to take them off..

oh no..

seeing him eatin porridge simply reminds me of last yr..

whoO..

duno hw many days of tat..

and i even refuse to eat anything at all..

and hw much tears i have dropped coz of the pain..

ha..

sound dramatic rite..

but if u ppl have nt gone thru the pain of the "wisdom tooth"...

den dun say im over reacting..

haa!!!

i was so tired actually..

coz i onli have a mere 3hrs slp..

and after tat we had some "freetime"

haa!!

zelig fell aslp on Daniel's bed..

Billy and William playin the piano.

Aileen playin the computer..

Daniel talkin to her..

as for me..

i fell aslp on the sofa bed after readin the magazine..

zzZzzz...

den after a while..

Billy and William came in..

me and Zelig oso wake up...

and we start maple.

haa!!!

Billy helped me do the jumpin quest halfway the connection fail..

den login.. i jump again..

den halfway i walked away..

Zelig play and tat spells trouble..

my character jump dwn..

im suppose to jump UP!!!

haiyo..

den i start playin with the piano.

and they start screanin inside the rm..

trouble again.

my character fell dwn.ha!!

den they keep laughin at me..

and den we had Dai Dee..

loser out and have to distribute the cards..

that Aileen and Daniel..

ha!!!

Jokers of the day..

Zelig and Billy are laughin and rollin ard the floor..

and the best part is Billy is in white..

as if he is moppin the floor.

ha!!!!

Aileen's and Daniel's card.

are super powerful..

they almost have 1 whole full set of cards..

meaning 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10, J, Q, K..

and that Billy is another blur 1..

ha!!

but ultimately.

im de 1 tat get bullied..

argh~~~

the "game"..

and Billy cursin me tat i will lose..

argH~

we had lot of fun there..

went hme at ard 10pm..

shared a cab hme..

and of coz gt nagged by my mum..

today had a slack day too..

nv study..

thats all..

tmr must study le.

if nt i cant go out with Leng..

ya..

tats all ba..

bye...

Mr Zelig... stop spyin my blog la~~ haa!!!

=>im back.<=
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

posting

haiz. sometimes i just hate blogging.

so sian.

duno what to blog.

these few days are jus like living hell for me.

but thru these days some things are happenin.

totally have no idea why..

fear in me built up.

nvm.

forget it.

any way.

these few days.

paper are all killers.

and i keep fallin aslp.

was too tired.

nw already havin cough.

my lips are extremely dry.

my eyes cannot tahan.

imagine i in train read magazine.

dun even have the strength to hold it properly and dropped it..

-__-"

haiz..

too tired..

everyday onli slp fer like 3hours.

ystrday more power. 2hours onli.

faint.

after paper reached hme slp like a pig frm 2pm till 8pm.

haa!!

and here im blogging.

hee..

nth to blog actually la..

haiz..

sometimes realli have the thought of juz get rid of this blog..

coz i cant write much in here like before..

ppl are readin my blog.

i noe that my frenx are concern abt me tats why they read my blog.

but some things i rather keep them to myself..

tats why gt those matrix kind of blog..

but some ppl are juz too clever..

or their IE duno why can read..

*faint*

den in de end my secret is no longer a secret.

haiz..

whatever.

bye..

=>posting<=
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

眼泪的味道

记忆深处的美好

星空还刻着你的微笑

数不清多少夜晚

她在你手心的记号

轻轻靠在我怀抱

闻你发丝淡淡的味道

怀念我们曾经

多么单纯的美好

过去的美好

我想有一天

我们都能忘掉

想你的星空下

星星不再闪耀

我想我知道

眼泪的味道

曾经付出的每一天每一年

我不曾想逃

我想我知道

眼泪的味道

曾经付出的每一天每一年

我不曾想逃

受伤的翅膀

总有一天会

慢慢慢慢的变好

能飞得更高

当失去你的依靠

don't wanna miss you

逝去的不能再留住

只是过往每个画面

都成为我们的束缚

对爱情的无助

我想我知道

眼泪的味道

=>眼泪的味道<=
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

exams start le..

today is the first day of the exam.

soso la..

can pass can le.

dun expect much.

so is tmr paper.

can pass can le..

thursday paper oso..

and next friday oso.

haa!!

all can pass can le..

let me go yr2 sem2 can le..

had BIA paper today..

i finish in an hours time and was stuck at 1 qns fer more den 30mins.

faint.

haa!!

in de end leave when the time is up.

went hme.

had my lunch.

online.

and slp.

watched the show at U channel.

Paris Lover ..

quite a nice show.

den here i am bloggin lo.

nth much to do.

tmr paper haven even start study at all..

sian!

went to sch ystrday to study with Zita.

was veri late.

coz i overslp.

play game, online, sms till ard 3plus den slp.

faint..

den study until i fall aslp.

changed to another rm.

her clsmates were there..

they are an enthu bunch of ppl.

haa!!

discussin the work together lo.

so united.

den the eye candy was there! haa

den so excited.

but never talk to him la..

dun dare..

haa!!!~

lalalalala~~

study till 6plus den go hme..

watch campus superstar..

veri sad coz Yin Wei never get in..

T_T

adriano is nt bad..

but i prefer Yin Wei..

haiz..

studied till ard 2plus den slp lo...

....

haiz....

think i better go study le.

bye bloggie~

=>exams start le..<=
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my tears dropped. whr have the promise gone to..

there was this girl and this guy..

they were dating.

and from the very beginning, the girl's family strongly objected on her dating this guy.

Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrelled very often.

Though the girl loved the guy a whole lot, she would always always ask him..

"How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the girl to be very upset.

With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him.

As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl...

"I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married.

So before he left, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies.

They sent their love through emails & phonecalls.

Though it was hard, but neither even thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed.

She realized that she was badly injured.

Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her.

But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was a sigh.

She had lost her voice......

The doctor said that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice.

Listening to her parents' comfort , but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence. she would cry...

it's still just silence cry that accompanied her.

Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same.

Except for the ringing tone of the phone.

Which pierced into her heart every time it rang.

She did not wish to let the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him.

In return,the guy sent millions & millions of text messages to which the girl didn't reply , and countless of phone calls, all the girl could do, was cry.

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & b e happy.

With a new environment, the girl learns sign language & started a new life.

Telling her everyday that she must forget the guy.

One day, her friend came & told her that he's back.

She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her.

Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding.

The girl was shattered.

When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on , she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language to tell her...

"I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You."

With that, he slipped the ring back onto her finger.

The girl finally smiled.

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"

=>my tears dropped. whr have the promise gone to..<=
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Sunday, February 19, 2006

sorry..

oops.

a wrong usage of word.

my soul is not dead.

hmmm....

Petra..

thanks for scoldin me...

too much things ard me reminds me of things..

of coz. my soul is still alive.

the thing i have done by hurtin myself is just merely biting myself.

no further than that.

i will nv take life so easily..

its the fear that he have implanted in me...

after he walked a way..

a fear in me have grown ba..

the trust..

ppl will be able to earn the trust i have in them..

used to be difficult..

but nw.. i think is hundred times more difficult ba...

ya..

shall put a stop to all these postings...

bye.....

=>sorry..<=
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Saturday, February 18, 2006

dont ask me why. coz i oso duno.

dun ask me why am i blogging in this language. coz i jus simply dunwan ppl to know what im blogging. u might be clever enuf to see what im typing. and say why am i so stupid wanting to blog things out when i dun wanna let ppl see.. but i juz wanna blog things out. havin feelings kept inside me.. it sucks!

i duno why. my tears are so threatenin to me. it is juz like a balloon filled with water. goin to burst anytime. why. i duno. too much memories i think. all the things ard me just reminds me on the past. and me this stupid gal.. go and read what i have typed out. argh. maybe coz all along i am runnin away frm the problem. the feeling. everything. during cruise, when CY asked abt hw am i feelin already. am i realli ok or what. i realli duno answer. i onli know how to keep quiet and hide my face under the towel and vividly say "yaya..im ok" but am i realli ok? tats the main qns. i myself dun even know the answer. hw will ppl know. too deep my wound had become. and salt have been applied on it. the feelings sting like nv before. seeing the person playin, talkin to him. so close. is nv me again. i have lost the position in his life. or perhaps i have never had such a position before. i duno. perhaps im juz a fool who cant see things well. perhaps im juz a blind gal. maybe. perhaps. i duno. i onli know that everything have make me sink into another depression which ppl dun even realise tat im in one. i onli know that everything have make me into someone who are so afraid nw. afraid of losing my onli friends i had. yes im a loner. i onli have these few friends. and tats why im so pissed and angry when ppl start to snatch them away frm me. im already pathetic enough. yes im havin self pity. would u kindly pity me too? u are nt the one who have been thru all these lost. but me. why is there so many ppl wanting to snatch away things from me when i onli have these left. once all these are being snatched away. i will have nothin left on this planet earth worth my stay. i would rather be buried 6feets undergrd and join the richest place on this whole universe, the GRAVEYARD.

perhaps why am i feelin so coz i have nt bein able to learn to let go. indeed i said i will nv want to be with him anymore. yesh its true. but why do i feel jealous or angry when de person talkin and playin with him is nt me anymore. why. i oso duno. so dun bother to ask me why. im angry at myself for being such a weaklings. unable to let go. unable to forget. i will nv forget the day.

25th July 2005. the day which i sit at the staircase of Bugis and cried. the day i took bus 7 to clementi and cried all my way back. the day i start to feel that the whole world is crashin down on me. the day that i have nv done things that will eventually bring physical hurt on myself. the day that i cried myself to slp in such a horrible feelin that i might have even ended life. ha! such a foolish gal ya. the day tat i once again slipped into depression and leads to the flunking of almost all the papers for my semester exam.

however. i have no one to blame. juz myself for trustin someone i shldnt have. and this is the result. havin unable to face him anymore. unable to even start a proper conversation with guys. ha! funny ya. what a stupid gal i am. bringing all these problems onto myself. in these world. nothing hurts more than these i think. not even the death of my loved ones? ha. im nt sure. my loved ones are still by my side. the word LOVE. is indeed a complex word. im mixed up by it too. what exactly is that. no one knows the answer. but all will agree to one thing... LOVE HURTS....

my soul is dead wef 25th July 2005........

=>dont ask me why. coz i oso duno.<=
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

My Valentines!!

yesterday is Valentine's Day..

i spent it with 2 of my beloved!

Layleng and Xinjie.

ha!!

well..

i start my day with a toopis retest.

coz i did kind of bad for the other ICA for that module.

and the best part is i was late fer the paper..

and i didnt even know whr is the venue of the paper!

power rite!

ha!

went in..

den lecturer asked me.

"rongping. u got ur itp placement already?"

den i replied

"haven leh."

"den do u wan to work at coffee club?"

"orh ok lo. anything~"

and thus, my ITP will be workin at coffee Club..

ha!

what will i be doin there?!!

make coffeE?!

or make plastic containers for them?

haa!!!!

duno..

shall see hw..

after paper.

i went to computer lab and played games.

surf ard.

did nth much.

at 1pm.

called Leng..

went over to Biz IT library!

well.

i WALKED there hor!!

haaA!!

from Chemical Life Science leh!!!

haaa!!

went to look for Leng..

den continue to play computer!

haa..

den Xinjie reach SP le..

went to fetch her..

we 2 went for lunch first..

saw XueYun.

and thus, we joined their event.

me fakin as an O level School Leaver.

-_-"

haa

quite fun..

cool..

ha! den went to SAA..

pass David the photos..

ha!!!

laughin all the way..

mit up with Xinjie and Leng..

and we went to Bugis.

actually wanna eat @ V8..

but seeing the queue makes us sian 1/2

so we went over to have dao huay!!!

yeah~

at selegie..

after eating.

we went to see the Tao's Restuarant..

coz gt live band singing..

hmm

the one singing there is gd..

but can be better..

so we decided we go sing ourselves..

haa!

went kbox..

so funny.!!!

haa

den went hme at ard 1230am..

took cab..

reach hme..

did nth..

read magazinez and slp..

and here i am blogginG!

yeah..

Valentine's Day...

a day not onli have to spent it with ur the other half..

spendin it with ur dearest beloved friends is worth it too...

was havin this thought..

will there be a couple who is willing to let their other half to spent their Valentine Day with their friends instead of them? meaning even if they are free on that day.. and they decided to let each other to spent this special day with their friends instead..

well..

to me..

i think for a couple..

every other day shld be Valentine's Day..

if onli on 14th Feb every yr..

ur bf/gf be good and romantic and nice to u..

den whats the use of being together..

think if tats de case..

finding a 1 nite stand is even better..

everyday is Valentine's Day!!!

ha!!

ok..

what crap i talking..

whatever..

bye bloggie...

=>My Valentines!!<=
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Monday, February 13, 2006

yeahyeah i m back!

ok! think i better sit dwn and blog.. if nt.. the blog can den close down le..
cant let all my hardworks juz go down the drain juz liydaT!
haaA!!!
dunwanna blog abt those tat i missed out..
haa!!
tat will be way too boring..
anyway..
juz got back frm the 3D2N cruise~
its realli fun!!
haa!!
the people that went are so funny too!!
even David also is another funny person
haa!!!
bought a bag there lo..
den friday reach singapore..
went hme SLP!!
had prac at nite.

had performance on Saturday.
LEng was forced to come and watch
haa!!
=x
we decided to go for dou hua after tat.
but in de end we didnt.
coz on the way frm paya lebar mrt station to the shop.
there is this uncle who fell down at the pavement at the roadside.
everyone of us are so worried that we went over quickly and help the uncle up.
he was drunk.
veri drunk.
and he cant even remember his home no.
haiz..
but still manage to get his hme no. and called his family members.
personally. i am disappointed in his family members.
they dun realli seems to be veri worried.
coz they took 1hour to come over.
what is this.
haiz.
anyway.
den we went hme with cab.

went service on sunday den make up cell grp.
and went hme..

today had extra lessons.
and here i am bloggin! haa!
done~
byE!

=>yeahyeah i m back!<=
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Monday, February 6, 2006

nth much actually.

almost a wk nt blogging.

too lazy.

thursday.

lesson?! eh. duno.

ya. went fer 30mins lesson.

and did case study.

den.........

eh............

go hme.ha!!!

friday.

lessons.

late fer quiz fer almost 40mins.

so the teacher let me take de test after the class finish.

overall quite manageable paper.

went to watch the Superstar concert in SP Convention centre..

den went to the River Angbao agian.

and we went there with lots of balloONS!!

and thus.. we become the centre of attraction and start distrubuting them..

so happy and sad.

happy coz when the children receive the balloons..

the smile on their faces are so nice!!

sad..

coz all the balloons are GONE!

duhx.

ha..

after tat went to watch this band perform..

to my surprise..

this band..

is frm my church!!

quite nice..

but i prefer last time tat 1 la..

anyway..

den went hme..

saturday.

went for makeup cell grp..

den service.

went off str8 after preachin.

reached clarke quay at ard 8pm.

juz in time..

perform.

CLS Annual D&D.

after tat went back sch unload instruments.

den proceed to Holland V fer dinner or supper?!

ha!

had zhi cha~

and we lao-hei!!

haa!!!

fun..

den went back hme in cab with Huiling and Veronica.

played maple till duno time...

4am den slp..

sunday..

wake up late..

suppose to mit kaixian and jon at Dover @ 1130am..

but in de end i 11am den wake up.

so they go makan first..

i slowly go sch.

mit Lihua at boonlay den go to dover again

ha!!!

den waited fer kaixian and jon to come..

took our instruments den went to take a cab dwn to soka..

damn it man!!!

msg us damn shitty lots time and ask us to reach by 1pm and ask us not to be late..

and yet..

i reach there 115pm..

they haven start..

and they onli start at ard 215pm

bloody!!!

waste my money.. my time!!!

had practice.

boring.

went hme.

slp fer an hour.

den went to watch I Not Stupid Too

realli a veri nice show..

at the front part..

i was laughin till buay tahan..

den the back..

cry like a mad person in de cinema..

realli veri touchin..

must watch!!

den went hme..

played maple again..

duhx..

today..

10am -11am lesson

i 930am den wake up..

reach sch ard 1030am

so went library to finish up with the case study..

den here i am blogging..

nth to do..

have to wait till 4+pm den go find David..

briefing fer cruise.

ha!

haiz..........

like no mood liydat.

suan le..

tats all ba.

bye bloggy!!

=_)

=>nth much actually.<=
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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

团拜

these few days. went out frm mornin till nite..

was so tired by the time i reach hme..

on monday..

went to Mr Lee's hse.

watched HKCO and some drum VCD..

den watched One More Chance

wanted to watch tat long time ago..

forget when le..

ok found it.! ha~

its here!!!

den the ppl there had some drink before proceedin to Mr David's hse..

watched the duno wat CO VCD this time..

after tat most of them came over to my hse.

had steamboat session..

Samuel, Wenhao and Xinjie left at ard 1230am..

i slept at ard 2am..

tuesday...

wake up late.

went to Chen laoshi hse...

den to Jonathan's, Zhi Guan's Ah Heng's and Xingzuan's..

reached hme at ard 12am...

so tired..

fell aslp at 1am...

today. had lesson.

damn bloody boring.

half awake for almost everything.

and here i am blogging.

coz i'm too bored..

and sad.

dun ask me why.

juz sad for nth.

coz im a sadist!

wahahahaha!!

*bang wall*

ok.i'm mad.

bye!

=>团拜<=
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